Le Coucher

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Hello, you.

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I heard you’re getting married. Just saw a random pre-wedding picture of you and her.

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You seemed happy. Her skin glowed against the last rays of light from the sunset… And she seemed happy,too…

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Several years ago, it was what we planned — to be wed… But now, you’ll be wed to someone else. Someone who’s not me.

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The sunset? It was part of it, too. You knew how I love sunsets…

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I can still remember the way you whispered in my ear that you’ll marry me under a sunset…

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It’s ironic that I am looking at a very new photograph and yet it seems like it’s all too familiar, which makes me feel nostalgic and melancholic at the same time…

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But…

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Why am I even writing this in the first place?

When My Worst Became At Its Best

2.3.2010

I walked quietly on one lonesome night and thoughts never stopped pouring in. I felt a void I couldn’t quite get rid of. Then I noticed tears have started to cascade down my cheeks, no way of stopping them now. I felt desolate. I felt abandoned. I felt alone…

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It’s one of those tough times that I needed a shoulder to cry on but couldn’t find any. Everybody seemed “too busy”. Everybody seemed not to care. Everybody seemed moving fast-forward and I was the only one in slow motion. And I felt like even if I pour my heart out to them, they wouldn’t really understand.

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No one would understand…

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I looked up at the expanse of the starlit sky. Every star looked wonderful, dancing gaily, as if they were inviting me to join in their waltz. Then as I am left in awe, I realized I have seen God’s fingerprints on the vastness of the sky. I saw one star twinkle remarkably and by that I knew the Lord said to me, “I Am here.”
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Another tear dropped.

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I felt a cool breeze brush against my skin, and it blew my hair away from my ear which made me hear a soft, soothing whisper. I knew it was Him. He said, “I Am here.”
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My heart pounded on my chest, I felt my blood rushing through my veins. Lub-dub-lub-dub-Lub-dub. In every coming in and out of blood through my heart, I was reminded that this life that I have is a gift. And in every beat my heart gave out, I heard the still, small Voice who said, “I Am here.”
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Someone listens. Someone understands. And even if the whole world turned its back on me, my Lord Jesus never will.

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I continued on my journey with wings on my feet. And whenever I stopped and felt afraid, I hear Him reassure that He’s there… with me…

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Walking on one lonesome night wasn’t lonely at all. I was never alone.

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Jesus is here.

Ordinary Song

I don’t know why this song by Marc Velasco has this effect on me everytime I hear it playing. I can sense how in love he was when he wrote this song. 

 

Perhaps it’s a nice thing for a man to offer a love song to a woman, pouring his heart out through his music. 🙂 I wonder if Marc wrote this on a sunny or a rainy day. Hmmm?

 

Anyway, i just feel like posting here the lyrics of the song. 🙂 I feel good inside.

 

Thanks, Marc! 🙂

 

 

Just an ordinary song
To a special girl like you
From a simple guy
Who’s so in love with you

Verse 2:
I may not have much to show
No diamonds that glow
No limousines
To take you where you go.

Chorus 1:
But if you ever find yourself
Tired of all the games you play
When the world seems so unfair
You can count on me to stay
Just take some time
To lend an ear
To this ordinary song

Interlude

Verse 2:
Just an ordinary song
To a special girl like you
From a simple guy
Who’s so in love with you

I don’t even have the looks
To make you glance my way
The clothes I wear
May just seem so absurd

Chorus 2:
But deep inside of me is you
You give life to what I do
All those years may see you through
Still I’ll be waiting here for you
If you have time
Please lend an ear
To this ordinary song

Interlude

Verse 3:
Just an ordinary song
To a special girl like you
From a simple guy
Who’s so in love with you.