Dream Wedding

I don’t know how it would feel,

How I would look—

I don’t know exactly,

Because it’s just here all in my head.

I don’t know when it becomes real,

How much it would differ from the books.


I’ve seen several weddings before.

A man and a woman so deeply in love,

People I personally know, while some I do not,

Decide to spend a new chapter of their lives.

Till death do them part,

Spending the rest of their days

In each other’s embrace.


And wedding after wedding

that I’ve been able to witness,

I cannot help but wonder,

When is mine gonna happen?


Will there be a brave man

Who will be valiant enough

To pop the golden question to me,

“Please, will you be my wife?”


And just thinking of it

Brings tears to my eyes.

Why, you may ask?

It’s because I’ve got two things in mind.

It’s either it would happen


it would not…

The former is glorious.

The latter, glorious still,

but with a different form.


So I sit here, my pen does the talking,

My heart does the thumping,

And my mind does the thinking.


I see butterflies flying,

Flowers gracefully scattered on the floor,

The smiling faces of people…


I see myself in a delicate,


white dress…


… But…


Who could he be?

How does he look like?



Or does he only exist in my dreams?

To You (Whoever You Are) part 2

Dear Future Husband,



I’m sorry if I haven’t been faithful to you all my life…




And I hope that someday when we meet and I tell you of the wrong decisions and choices I’ve made, you’ll find a place in your heart to forgive me…




Hoping and loving,


Breakthrough; A Dream Come True


Yesterday, November 27, 2008, was another great day to remember. 🙂

I had the chance to visit my alma mater and it was really a day to cherish.

My band (sacred Silence) and I went there to minister to people and we were so glad to have been a part of that great event.

Back in college, it has been my dream to reach out to young people in that place. To win souls for Jesus. To spread His unfailing love. ANd moreover, to win UE caloocan for God’s kingdom.


Before, I admit, there were times that I almost gave up. But then, God was the one who taught me to just pray and pray. I prayed and I waited until something happened. I still did my best to reach out.

And I remember those nights that we held bible studies in the hallways of the TYK building and school guards came to dish us out. I thought, they were really cruel and mean… They even accused us that we were forming some kind of a fraternity or something… Then God would remind me that Jesus experienced worse than what we did. That would give comfort…

In the moments of praying, there were times that God was silent. I know He heard every single prayer I uttered. But…. He was silent. Perhaps, He was testing my faith back then. He wanted to see how far I would go for Him.

And then…. I graduated…

That dream never died out in my heart. I get really emotional when someone from our then bible study group says to me, “Ate/ Ghay, I really miss those times na nagbabible study at nagkakantahan tayo noon. Sana maulit.” Then I would have to answer, “Yeah… One time dalaw ako dyan. Then we’ll catch up on old times.”

It’s really good reminiscing those times.

And when we had that invitation to minister in UE Caloocan, I did not even think twice!

BREAKTHROUGH. That was the title of the event.

Praise God! Young people from that place responded positively. As I watch them stand up and respond to the altar call, I couldn’t help but cry… Tears flowed down my cheeks. My heart jumped for joy!

You see, this was a dream come true!!! And yeah, I, too, experienced the breakthrough just as those young people had theirs…

Once again, God has proved to me how He keeps His promises. Truly, His children’s labor will never ever be in vain.

I am proud at the fact that I was one who had a dream and prayed. And I was one of many who got their prayers answered… who waited until their dreams came to reality…



I dreamt of you again.

It was weird…

I never expected you to be there yet it seemed as if you were to stay by my side not only for that swift moment but till forever.

You held my hand, and I felt that a certain warmth rushed in to touch every single cell in my heart. You said you’ll be back for good, and that you won’t be leaving– not anymore. That was an awfully familiar promise of long ago, a promise that ended up getting broken.

As your lips moved to form the words that affirmed you will stay, I held my breath. I cried… But why did I? Was it because of relief? Of an intense joy? Or because of an immense sadness, knowing at the back of my mind that everything will melt away as soon as I open my eyes to wake up and  be back in reality?

Everything is so different when I am awake. Yes… Everything…

For a moment, I felt you were real. I felt your heart belonged to mine once more…

…but then again, it was only a dream.

Nothing more.

Nothing less…