If I could do it all over again, I would have saved myself for my future husband, whether or not he exists.
The world is flooded with Your grace and mercy,
submerged in Your love and warm embrace.
Yet the one You love—
the apple of Your eyes—
still prefers to leave You behind.
The one You love hurts you
more often than not,
clings to things that would easily fade.
and to this day that You have made
You still choose to love her—no matter what…
Tears fall from Your eyes
as You see her run further and further,
but You’re still willing to pick her up,
dust her off and love her again
every single time she fails You.
Her future is bright and always will be
if she would just trust and surrender—
there is still a lot to learn.
And that is what it is all about—
and Your forgiveness…
Gracious and consistent;
One that’s second to none,
the kind that continues longer than forever.
And yes, truth abides,
She can never ever
Dear Future Husband,
I’m sorry if I haven’t been faithful to you all my life…
And I hope that someday when we meet and I tell you of the wrong decisions and choices I’ve made, you’ll find a place in your heart to forgive me…
Hoping and loving,
There are times when people look at me and they see a very tough woman. They put in their mind that my toughness makes me insusceptible to pain. So they think it’s ok to hurt me over and over.
Yet there are times that this tough woman shakes like a leaf and gets scared and hurt, too. Like all the others, there’s a small child in me that curls up in bed and cries her heart out, longing to be held by someone stronger than her.
I just am so blessed that in my weakest times, I find my fortitude in Christ alone…
Forgetting does not mean obliterating the memory of my past, but is a conscious refusal to let it absorb my attention and impede my progress.
Dear Lord, I’ve been plowing up the soil of past memories for far too long. Today, I’m going to put away the plow and start planting seeds. When You see me reaching for the plow and going back to rehash old grievances and hurts, I pray that the Holy Spirit will convict me quickly. Today, the past is the past and I’m not looking back.
In Jesus’ Name, Amen.